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It all started with this guy...

Pentagon Jr as Bane

First time I saw him on Lucha Underground, holy shit, that's a perfect Bane. He may not be as hugely built as other potentials (another crowd favourite is Batista, which makes sense to me, because he's got the acting chops to back it up), but his overall look and presence just screams Bane to me. Plus he's not shy about his comic references - he already came out in a Venom, Joker and Batman iterations of his getup in various matches. Plus Bane is luchador so why not throw in some real deal lucha moves in his repertoire. Hell, taking a little bit of creative license, instead of breaking his back the classic comic book way, throw Pattinson off into a lungblower (it's more lucha and more over the top, and it's fun...enough with this whole make comics look grounded thing). He might have a language barrier, but it will probably make Bane a more intriguing character (I love Tom Hardy, but wtf was that Sean Connery impression).

Giancarlo Esposito as Lex Luthor  

The past 5-10 years have proven me this guy is the most badass "big boss in suit & tie" character.  I don't even think he needs to go bald for the part. He has the ruthlessness that all the live action Lex's are missing so far. I mean Michael Rosenbaum was dope, but technically that all happened pre-Superman, so sorta doesn't count.

Michale B Jordan as adult Static Shock

Remember the "Hey Aunty" line. Now imagine that in a more good guy setting. Yup.

Willem Dafoe - Joker (Arkham Asylum-inspired) 

I always wondered, how did the execs at WB ever thought "Hey, you know that scene in Spider-man when he was laughing maniacally in the mirror?". If I remember correctly, he even said it outright in interviews that was what he was channeling. C'mon la WB.

Bill Skarsgard - Joker / Batman Who Laughs

If we're going for a slightly younger Joker, bruh, haven't seen anyone do that evil clown grin better than this guy. As a bonus, it'll be even cooler if they make him the Batman Who Laughs opposite Rob Pattinson. Dark Nights Metal as a movie would be dope. Alternatively, the guy who played the clown from Terrifier would be a very close runner-up for the next Joker. That one's all kind of messed up too.

Danny Trejo as Lobo 

Originally I went with Mamoa. I mean c'mon, he is Lobo in the flesh, minus the grey skin and red eyes. But then, I totally understand the reasoning to #MakeAquamanGreatAgain. So, how bout Machete as an interstellar bounty hunter? Si!

Jaime Alexander as Wonder Woman 

Well, since the Snyderverse isn't really canon anymore, can we bring back the obvious choice? I mean c'mon, look at the picture side by side, give her the tiara and tweak the armour a bit, boom, Wonder Woman. Sorry, I just can't buy Han from Fast & Furious's dead girlfriend as Princess Diana of Themyscira.

Bonus: Cast they got spot on

Brenton Thwaites as Dick Grayson / Nightwing / Robin 

I'm pretty sure there are plenty of other names here, but for my money, this one really felt like Grayson jumping right out of the pages onto screen ("Fuck Batman" and dark/gritty show tones aside).

Hi.

It's been awhile.

Straight up, I've been declining mentally and emotionally as of late. Various things that happened in my life basically made it difficult for me to sleep most nights.

And then it hit me - despite being mostly alone back in the day, with a constant revolving door of friendly characters, writing was my release (no matter how nonsensical it was). It definitely helped me work out my demons.

That's why we're here today, continuing from where I left off. I decided to keep the old stuff here in spite of how very clearly cringe of a person I was, as a reminder I suppose, of what not to do or who not to be anymore.

So, what have i been up to for the last 5 years?

Well, I got married.

I'm keeping up with a bubbly, fun and equally chaotic 2 year old.

Been in the ad game, although it's a weird relationship - it's not really my thing but I can't stay away for too long either (I take a break from it every once in awhile, but any other line of work is just too slow or makes me braindead).

Oh, and there's this one mistake I made about 4 years ago that essentially handicapped my financial freedom and I would say is the main trigger for all my unresolved anger and resentment from years of growing up. But hey, that's a story for another day.

But really, what sparked the urge to suddenly write again was a simple thought -

I imagined answering the question "what's it like being a dad?".

My answer? Lots of scrubbing. 

After every meal, every snack, without fail, she'll have stains. And weirdly enough, I enjoy the clean up. I actually savour those quiet moments of just locking myself in the bathroom and scrubbing the stains off her PJs. It's a form of therapy really. 

That and our afternoon drives. Semi-quiet moments with Blues Clues or Bubble Guppies songs playing, her singing along, bopping her head to the tunes and me just escaping for an hour from life. 

I guess some things don't change - driving is still relaxing. The only difference is now I have a mini co-pilot, who by the looks of it, also enjoys the drives as a form of escape too.

Oh, and after 20 frickin years, I'm finally moving out to my own place. You have no idea how excited I am for this. I reckon I'll get more into this in a future post.

Ok, real talk now.

I think my emotions have been very much unchecked as of late.

Whenever I feel someone is getting in the way or breaching my space, I want to utterly destroy them.

In fact, I have been very overprotective of my space and boundaries a lot lately.

I constantly feel the need to punch something or someone.

I get triggered by the most mundane things.

People that sorta annoyed me, now REALLY annoys me.

Trust is a finite resource.

I think it's also the first time I realise I truly miss friends.

Yes, this coming from the guy who can disappear for years and suddenly call you out of the blue to lepak or to check out your latest gig.

I think it's important for me to address this, especially for those who thought I might have abandoned them or taken them for granted.

If I don't see or contact you for long periods of time, just don't take it personally.

I tend to get caught up with whatever's in front of me. Here and now kinda deal, y'know?

Sometimes names will pop up on my periphery every once in awhile and will remind me to ping or nudge.

But for the most part, I just like to be left alone to my own devices, to be able to do things at my own pace and dive headfirst with total abandon into whatever I'm doing.

But yea, that's a little bit of a general catch up from me.

Hope everyone's doing well.

This is not gonna be a regular thing due to my day-to-day schedule, but there'll be life here again.

Oh, and conclusion for my mental & emotional degradation? I should probably see a therapist about it.